i've been asked to update about my life because apparently i seem to have failed to tell some key people what's been going on with it...actually no wait before I do that let me rephrase by saying i was not Asked to but more or less demanded of...the sheer boldness of placing an exclamation mark, two I might add, can make anyone sense the urgency to update.  so here goes: it's been pretty much a year since I've graduated....where the hell did the time go? seriously felt like it was just last summer...and since then I have had three jobs...I am now on my fourth one...I technically do not count the third one because it was only a day...it was stupid, lame and only on the weekends and I'm glad I made the quick decision to get out of there before I regretted it. I am currently working at a photo studio in south pasadena...I don't really have a title but I would call myself a digital archivist...or i guess really a fancy way of saying i scan negatives all day making sure they are color balanced and all that jazz....in a way i guess i am learning to make sure photos look print ready which is something i can apply to on my own stuff...catherine the photographer is quite a character...let's just say *mary jane* and her get along very well...the job is fairly easy unless the negatives scan pretty horribly and it takes me a while to fix them...if it wasnt for the internet or magazines i'd probably die of boredom...the only time i enjoy scanning any image is if its a celebrity...today i did the cast of the sisterhood of the travelling pants and jodie foster....by the way eagle rockers she has photographed holly goldstein (classmate/friend in high school) when i saw the proofs I couldnt believe it...crazy. And before anyone asks, no she does not shoot celebrities or most of her work for that matter at the studio....it's all done off location. I'm pretty much going to be there until I am done scanning all her work and then archiving them into a program...We're working alphabetically and so far I am on the letter E.... to be honest i'm not sure where i'm going after this job...for now I'm just grateful I have it and it finally has something to do with photography...Lifetouch does not count! in about two weeks I'll be on a mini vacation...miami, cruise to the bahamas, and then somewhere else I think...i forget...after that back to work... now I dont normally like to sound emo or anything and forgive me for rambling... i think its partly due to the fact that its late and that ive had a lot on my mind but my state of mind is all out of whack...this year so far has been kind of weird...despite seeming so busy it seems like nothing has happend...i think its really just me continuing to compare the last 4 years to now...which is something i need to stop doing before i start to lose it...i'm content thats what it is...but not happy? or at least really happy...i dont know why that is...may be i just expect too much...i love my family and friends here in los angeles...but i cant help but want to share it all with those up north as well...i think it boils down to me just being scared...scared of losing everything i hold dearly. i'm terrified of the future...of who is going to be in it and who no longer will be a part of it....i know all that crap about not being scared and being brave and taking on life and all that bullshit but seriously i am scared...i worry too much...but i think that's ok and perfectly normal...and compared to a lot of other people out there my problems are nothing...yea my family is going through stuff but whose isnt?...i dont know what im saying anymore so before i go any further and look back at this and think what the hell was i writing and why im going to stop. it's nice to lay it all out and vent through this nice little outlet. i should continue to do so more often.. enough already...good night... sorry poop if this wasnt what you were expecting...good night anyways..and thanks for updating about your life...i have something to read when im at work. | 
Posted by: olivia | Jun 25, 2008 10:51:10 PM